If things work out for me then I promise I will listen to my heart, mind and soul more often. If not, I am muting myself forever.

Two things.

A) I felt true jealousy today. Right down to my core. I could honestly feel it in my bones, like a shock hit me and zapped right through. It was a new form of pain to me. I think it's my heart trying to tell me something.

B) I gave in. Number one, four posts back fell through. I had a dream last night that things finally worked out and I was a happy camper again cause I had my friend back. But I woke up to the false reality of life and I had to try one more time to fix it, because that one was my subconscious trying to tell my something.