Second time's the charm

How could I be so dumb as to turn you away?

How could I not see?

You're incredible.

You're wonderful.

You're simple grand.

You're the first to treat me like a real piece of art.

You're the first I feel welcome to open right up and show my true colors.
And I almost passed you up.

Thank you for giving me a round two.

The Boat That Rocked//Pirate Radio!!

Alright so, if you remember way back I had mentioned my immense excitement for a movie called The Boat That Rocked. Well, it finally came to Canada!!! The name has been changed to pirate Radio since I saw the preview but it was a mabillion times better than I though it was going to be, which is tough considering I knew it was going to be spectacular. It was BY FAR the best movie I have seen in a long long time, I'm sorry Wild Things and Whip It, but you don't even compare! If you have not heard of this movie then I strongly believe you need to watch the trailer and you'll be hooked I'm sure.

Don't worry, I've opened my eyes

I have realized that I'm being an idiot and I gotta stop. I'm going back to being me even if it feels unfitting at first. I miss being myself. I'm going to start thinking like I used to. No more of this 'shoving it to the back' non-sense that I've been forcing myself to do. I like smiling too much to give it up =)

Wow. Everything just seems to be falling apart lately. Since the end of high school it seems like only time until absolutely nothing in my life is the same. I have lost everyone I'm close with and pretty much everyone I'm not close with too. And I'm changing, I can feel it. I don't want to change though, I absolutely love who I was becoming. Not having the same people in my life has caused me to tuck things about myself away and become more like the people I'm around now and I hate it. I don't want to be like anyone, I want to be myself, but all the people who had similar interests as me have all vanished and I feel like I'm left here to pull of some sort of life that doesn't exist any more. Clare, you have no idea how excited I am to come see you. This chance for escape is more than I could ask for right now.
Along with this new me had come a loss of interest in everything I used to love. I am no longer inspired to write, draw, blog.. None of it. I don't even take pictures anymore or listen to my music and realizing this feels like a part of me has died. I guess a part of me HAS died. My creativeness is no longer the first thing on my mind. It, along with my passion and inspiration has been pushed to the back. I know if I sat down and said, I'm going to write a poem, I still could but I takes that thought and that push to get it, it doesn't just flow like it used to. So once again, I'm going to take a break from blogging. I feel like I'm cheating myself if I force myself to blog, it's not the same when it feels like an assignment. Hopefully I'll be back soon, but maybe this is the new me and maybe I'll accept that. Much love to all my readers. ♥